ChadAintPosi

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 20:40:50 GMT

There's only about 2 things I wouldn't give up for the chance to tour and play music.
Anyone know of a band looking for a bass player or anything really?

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 16:49:53 GMT

fuck still feeling like this

Mon, 04 May 2009 02:03:01 GMT

Seriously... fuck you. 10 months later I find out all the bullshit you said. Really fucking cool how you try to pin shit on me. Really cool how you try to say "what's going on in my head".

Everything happens for a reason and im definitely glad they did.

Bottom line....
Fuck you

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 23:26:07 GMT

i have this whole "ideal" situation in my head. i just dont know what to do to make that a reality... or if its even possible.

Fri, 24 Apr 2009 04:07:26 GMT

theres way too much going on in my way.
hope, regret, confusion, surety, doubt, selfishness, selflessness...

...take a chance. i promise its worth it.

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 20:33:18 GMT

I cant stand being this vulnerable.

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Sun, 19 Apr 2009 16:13:51 GMT

I loooooooooove you:)

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Sat, 18 Apr 2009 22:29:33 GMT

I really wish I could go back to being 17 and redo everything over.

I'm quickly turning into one of the most apathetic people I know or have ever met.

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Mon, 13 Apr 2009 17:07:12 GMT

it sucks when you finally realize something, only to also realize that it may be too late.

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 12:49:24 GMT

I hope you overdose and choke on your tongue.

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Tue, 07 Apr 2009 22:08:49 GMT

You're not a revolutionary and you're not going to change the world.

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 08:50:20 GMT

SUCH an unproducive day, but i have the week off so I'm completely ok with that. My entire day was spent sleeping, on the the computer, watching tv, playing resident evil. that game has taken over my past few days. it's 2:49 and I'm just now getting off of it because i cant beat this one part. fuck my life.
goodnight.

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 17:05:59 GMT

I havent updated this thing in ages.
currently in my life:
i have the rest of this week off work. not much going on at work since everything is pretty much all packed up and getting shipped any day now. were still supposed to be going sometime in May, but we still dont have a set date or official orders, so who knows whats going to happen. pretty much all i ever do is work, play xbox, play music, and hang out a little. i get to go home one last time before deployment next month and i dont think i could be any mor excited. i only have 9 days of leave and theres so many people i want to see. MS folks, AL, folks, FL folks. It's going to be a busy few days. I'm still not nervous about getting deployed for some reason like i assumed i would be. I got promoted and a new "job" thats really going to help me with quicker promotions and all. i dont even know what else to write. i'm just ready to get this next year over with and the next 4 years.
i'l start updating more often.

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 05:26:33 GMT

I'm about to head out to fort irwin and NTC for a month. I'm finally getting to do all the things I have been trained to do and get paid to do.
see you in a month.

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:34:13 GMT

My plan for the next few years:
Do this deployment tour, possibly re-class when I get back, serve my 4 years, get out of the army, travel across europe [not in a touristy way. I want to backpack with as little money and as few possessions as possible. I want to see the real parts and the tourist parts], move to a bigger city and go to school since I won't have to even pay for it [not just "a big city", but somewhere that I could bike around and be around a lot of different cultures. I've been looking into San Francisco. When I go back to school, I'm going to do something that I actually enjoy doing. I'm not made for a typical office job.] After this is all still open. I could either just get a job and start my "career" or go back to the Army as an officer and make a career out of that. Officers make good money and have a lot of say in everything. That's just dependent on how the next 4 years turn out and how much I actually end up liking the Army. It's still something I'm getting used to, but I'm liking it a lot. It's definitely not something that is for everyone.
All a need is a nice lady by my side through it all.
I'm ready to grow up and leave the past behind me. Everyday is a new day to keep setting up my future.

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 03:28:49 GMT

so much shit on my mind lately. so many different thoughts. so much shit i wish i knew how to fix or work out. so many things that i wouldnt change for the world. i'm a mess lately.

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 00:06:13 GMT

I started christmas leave today. I leave early in the morning to start driving home. I couldn't be more exited.

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Thu, 18 Dec 2008 14:43:36 GMT

Christmas leave is almost here and I dont think I could be more excited. I can't wait to go back home. Things here are starting to get better. I've met some cool people, but this place will never seem like home. It's weird to say I miss Mobile... a lot. Paige and Grant will be in town over Christmas, so that should be cool. I have so many people I'm supposed to hang out with while I'm in town.
It doesn't feel like Christmas to me. Maybe its the lack of Christmas decorations around my place and base. I don't know what it is, but it's kind of strange. Every year I always things to tell people I want when they ask, but this year I really have nothing. I've gotten everything I want/need lately with my money. I just want to go home, see family and friends and relax. AHHHHH! I cant wait.
I'm gonna take a nap now.

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 00:01:44 GMT

I'm posting from an LJ app I just downloaded on my phone. Maybe I'll actually start using livejournal more often again.

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Sun, 14 Dec 2008 15:06:36 GMT

i've been sick the past few days and i'm never fucking sick.
this shit sucks so bad.
i'm feeling somewhat better today though.
staing in my room is driving me crazy, so i'm debating on going on an adventure to somewhere today.
no idea why.

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 15:55:11 GMT

Life has been surprisingly good lately

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 01:18:09 GMT

i definitely just had one of the best weekend ever.
4 day weekend.
21st birthday.
hanging out.
people.
got my bonus.
new computer.

lovin' life.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 03:44:08 GMT

quick update!
im in el paso now. im loving it and loving being in the army. im loving how my life is going. i'm glad the people that are in my life are there. i'm making sure i dont fuck this up. i have way too much going for me lately. (by "this", im not talking about a person or whatever. i mean my life in general)
...i really certain people would look at the shit theyre doing and realize how bad of an idea it is. ive tried saying something about it, but it really just isnt my place.

Sat, 25 Oct 2008 00:33:47 GMT

having you out of my life is one of the best things ever.
...i should have just listened to everyone in the beginning.

Sun, 19 Oct 2008 10:00:18 GMT

I just dont get what you think you accomplish when you do stuff like that.
I really wish I could talk to you and actually get through your head.